it feels like a million days
as my patience frays
a thousand cheap hookers
for a thousand stays
and whatever come may
push you further away
a thousand onlookers
for a thousand slain
the soldier head sway
in a violent haze
prepare for war
and bloodstained blades
the skies stained gray
and your muscles ache
begging for more
while your battle song plays
I hastened through the storm, late
Whispering prose of my despair
My lover waits from sleep to wake
His eyes behind is eyelids; stare
Wishing I was with him there
So through the hail I did so quest
Whispering praise of my lover
To honour that which I confess,
Truth of which he did uncover:
My love of him and none other
Finally, endless steps led me there
Through the cold, rainy night
Right into my lovers lair
There he lay; a peaceful sight
Hard to see, though, for the light
But I could make out his form and,
As he drift through dreams at rest,
Lit the shack alight and warm
And as fire licked the mantle crest
I watched his slowly r
Dig your fingers into my soul
Twist your lips into a smile
Look deeply into my eyes
And chill me to the bone
Your breath on me is cold
It's a breath that you stole
My knees begin to fail
Digging your nails, into my soul
I forgot how to be whole
I forgot all I know
I remembered what is old
I remembered what is gone
Ribbons of pain in my throat
Shredded by the smoke
Shredded by the thought
Of your claws around my soul
Only as time went on
Did you loosen my soul
Your eyes began to fall
Gazing to nothing at all
I can not describe
The feeling I get,
When I see your face
I just can't forget,
But sometimes I see
In your blue eyes,
Help is all you need
And love you despise,
So just come to me
I'll be here,
And if you cry
I'll wipe your tears,
So whenever all of your
Perception fades,
Lift your head, girl
I'll show you the way,
And if your
Feelings ever change,
Take my hand girl
I'll show you the way,
I have tried
To not be insane,
But in my head
I've only just failed,
I have tried
To ease the bane,
And free myself
From these tethering chains,
But as we know
What love is, girl,
It's hard to change
When someone's your world
Never shall we be able to escape;
Away from greed's own inspiration, biased prodigies of manipulation,
Never shall we be set free;
Away from our own motivation, the papered disease of the nation,
Never shall we prevail;
Unto no amount of contemplation, will it rid us of this defecation
Never shall we succeed;
Unto no amount of perseveration, laboured souls and broken salvation,
Never shall this vanish;
And release us from incarceration, starved prisoners and manifestations,
Never, though, shall we perish;
From conceited attempts of assassination, belittling condolences and generalisation
Never, though, shall we reach;
Unrealistic
I feel like the world will crush me down
My shoulders struggle to bear this weight
I feel selfish that my thoughts continue to drown
Me in my sorrows and leave me in this state
I feel like the emotions that I experience now
Is a lesson taught for my future decisions?
But does this class have to kick me so hard I cower
And try so badly dodge all of these collisions?
I feel like the stress of the path I walk
Is consuming my mind and sending me insane
It's so unclear as to where my path will fork
And this cloudy road is becoming my bane
I feel like the tide is pulling me out to sea
I can't summon enough strength to swim back to shor
it feels like a million days
as my patience frays
a thousand cheap hookers
for a thousand stays
and whatever come may
push you further away
a thousand onlookers
for a thousand slain
the soldier head sway
in a violent haze
prepare for war
and bloodstained blades
the skies stained gray
and your muscles ache
begging for more
while your battle song plays
I hastened through the storm, late
Whispering prose of my despair
My lover waits from sleep to wake
His eyes behind is eyelids; stare
Wishing I was with him there
So through the hail I did so quest
Whispering praise of my lover
To honour that which I confess,
Truth of which he did uncover:
My love of him and none other
Finally, endless steps led me there
Through the cold, rainy night
Right into my lovers lair
There he lay; a peaceful sight
Hard to see, though, for the light
But I could make out his form and,
As he drift through dreams at rest,
Lit the shack alight and warm
And as fire licked the mantle crest
I watched his slowly r
Dig your fingers into my soul
Twist your lips into a smile
Look deeply into my eyes
And chill me to the bone
Your breath on me is cold
It's a breath that you stole
My knees begin to fail
Digging your nails, into my soul
I forgot how to be whole
I forgot all I know
I remembered what is old
I remembered what is gone
Ribbons of pain in my throat
Shredded by the smoke
Shredded by the thought
Of your claws around my soul
Only as time went on
Did you loosen my soul
Your eyes began to fall
Gazing to nothing at all
A lot has changed in the last 15 years. This profile is a time capsule of the struggles I went through when I was younger and represents a lot of emotional nostalgia.
I should try writing some more mature poetry sometime. And finish my book.
what's up my deviant art brothers
so has it actually been 2 years since I last updated? whatdafaq
so...... I'm not at university. i've moved to melbourne, living in an apartment with three others who were already here. they're lovely people and we're getting along well c:
i'm now working at crown casino as a blackjack dealer and i fucking love it. it's the most amazing thing i've done in the last few years. apart from your sister
life is slow. it's weird. not sure if i feel like i'm accomplishing anything. i mean, im getting somewhere with my life, but who knows. words words words. love life is shaky. nothing solid yet. tired of making al
Hellooooo it's been so long again. And again, so much is happening. I went through all my recent journals.. and gee. Talk about depressing. I've begun a new phase in my life so I figure that I'll reflect the most important aspects of what's going on currently ;D
I've gone from working 37 1/2 hours a week at one job to 25 hours a week at two jobs haha. I'm also at UNIVERSITY studying Geology. My teacher is a lazy bag of dicks so our class has to work around that, but it's not the funnest thing. I went to JAPAN in July and took some amazing pictures after climbing Mt Fuji, of which I'll upload one as a deviation. 632 deviations... oh god it'll
Been looking for a new job. Wonder if it's worth moving from my current job though. I mean, I hate where I am but hell, trying to learn an entire new skillset is almost pointless. Oh well, we'll see how it goes.
Just finished the Black Ops campaign. It was okay, but I expected the ending. Now I have nothing to do to fill my taim~
Maybe I'll go to Melbourne this weekend. I feel like Teriyaki~! Om nom nom.
Feeling a lot better than yesterday. Physically anyway. My head isn't bobbling around and I haven't passed out today which is nice... Still, I got heaps of sleep this morning and struggled to get out of bed *sigh*